"Now that I am not sure, I have made it my life to guard you, but at the same time I was a young dragon when I was knighted by your father," he responds in an exhale of breath.
I bite my lower lip tightly and refuse to look up. I've gone and messed everything up by asking that. I should have ignored my feelings and never said anything at all. I shouldn't have allowed myself to love him.
"See it is a hard choice," oh please, don't twist the knife further. "I believe that I truly love you girls but in what way, I couldn't say."
I can't take to be there another moment, I push myself from him and run back to my room in this village. I stumble over my shame, my guilt bumps me into people, Molly grabs my shoulders to stop the world from running away from me.
"I can't find Sir-"
"To my room!" I wail.
She protectively hugs me and I no longer feel the snow beneath my feet but the fabric of the bed I've been laying in. I can't find the words, the choking hold of the sobs in my throat are preventing any words from being spoken. I feel like such an idiot, I can't bear the thought of having to face Sir Thomas again after this.
Molly doesn't say a word, just quietly runs her hands through my hair in a quiet demonstration of calming. She could reset the events even though she doesn't know exactly what they are. She could change things to have him say something different but that would only have delayed this heartache. You can change a moment but you can't change a heart.
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